Give me art, but at half price and twice the quality please. To go.

My modeling thing is finished. I got the chance to see a few cool pics from billy's shots. They look like they'd make some seriously kick ass headshots. Nothing like Sun King's, but then again, it's the best I could probably get from this south of NY. It's been a fun time staying home for the most part... I don't know how but it seems that 11 months of stress and fatigue finally caught up with me. My muscles, every inch of my body right now hurts like hell. Its that after workout burn that you get, and damn it's strong. My back went out again yesterday, and lemme tell you, i'm getting sick of these bi-annual back spasms. It's a killer.

I do have to say that i'm eating very well. My nana is calling every day to check up on me and get updates on life in general. Plus she's a gourmand, so i get some amazing recipes from her. I had no idea that you can take such nasty ingredients, fry em, boil em, mash em, and mix in something from a box and you get yourself something that looks french, smells greek, and tastes professional.

I am in a slump... Here's the story hillariously spoken by my good friend Kevin: "Dude, you're in a manly meltdown. You had your balls in a vice of un-healthy chick values that the moment that they rebuilt after they got shattered by heartbreak, you forgot the biggest part of getting your mandom back. That's "lose the prince charming crap and get me to a slip and slide of fun called bachelorhood!" After that, you'd better remember one thing man, Youth is to be enjoyed, not planned out and given a time limit! So quit bein a chick and go get some one-nighter's number!"

Kevin is the kind of friend every man should have, but never look up to. In a tactfully translated version... he's right. After i broke up with Bri where did i have to recover? Among a tight-knit group of 30+'s who had already been married with no single women under the age of 40 around for a good 15 miles in all directions. I had been 'Adam the boyfriend' for so long that i started living up to someone else's standards and completely lost who I was. It didn't hit me until my birthday party that I am incredibly shy around women... I can't remember if i was that way before or not.

My solution is this, i'm going to go out sometime this week. I'm going to a bar, i'm going to have a blast, and in the process, i'm gonna meet as many people as i can. What else can I do? That's the only thing I can think of... and hey, if things dont pan out... the bars aren't that small, i'll cruise around and meet someone else. Although having a wingman wouldn't be half bad! If only a guy like Kevin were around for that...